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The Sky’s the Limit!

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Unsurprisingly, (at least to me!) the phrase “the sky’s the limit” isn’t applied to my life very frequently. In fact, I find myself more debilitated by the fear of failure and “what if’s?” more often than I’d like to admit.

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Lately, I’ve been in a crossroads (rut?) in my life and I’m not certain what direction I should be heading. Engineering? Photography? Teacher? Baker? Mother? None of the above? After a few tearful conversations with Mr. Bean about me wanting to do what God wants me to do but having not much of an idea what that was, he commented “sometimes you have to make a decision and do something and if it’s the wrong direction, God will come along and say “no, no, no!” and puts you in the right direction.”

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Huh. Silly as it is, that was exactly what I needed to hear, especially for my afraid-of-risk-taking and most-likely-to-wallow-in-uncertainty-seemingly-forever self.

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What am I thinking of taking a risk on, you might ask. Well, I’m thinking of opening my own photography business. There, I said it so it must be true – just like how nothing really happens unless it says so on facebook. (haha) I’m starting off by doing some research on how one opens their own business and by gathering advice from professionals from online as well as from the library. (Have any advice you’d like to share? I’d love to hear it!)

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I’m trying not to get caught up in the “what if’s?” and stress out about things like brainstorming a name, how to ask people for money and how much, how I should grow my portfolio, how to ask people for money and how much, about websites and branding, how to ask people for money and how much, and those kind of things.

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I guess I know that I’m entering this as I think it’s where God is leading me to go but if it’s not, he’ll open the doors that I’m supposed to be going through. I know with God all things are possible, so perhaps the sky’s the limit after all?

Have you taken any risks lately?

These Straight Out Of the Camera shots are fireworks from the finale of the grandstand show at the Calgary Stampede. We are lucky enough to have friends who live nearby and allowed me to take photos from their deck. They are my submission for this week’s “The sky’s the limit” theme at Good to Wow: Shoot and Edit.

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Questions

You know when your life just feels like one big question mark? That’s kind of how I feel at the moment. I feel like there is a lot of uncertainty in my life and I don’t like it. I know I’m supposed to trust that God is in control, but it’s difficult especially when I want to be the one holding the reins.

I would appreciate some advice from you regarding some of my questions:

  • I have recently been approached by a website of someone who appears as a health expert on a TV show for a partnership: if I provide a link in support of her website then I will be compensated through books, advertising or something along those lines. Eventually later this summer I would participate in a blogger spotlight program where I would share some of my expertise on vegan/gluten free/allergy friendly cooking and the like.  It’s sort of a “if you send me traffic, I’ll return the favour” type thing.
    While I am quite excited to be noticed and have someone who wants my knowledge and I know that it could be a great opportunity for me and my blog, I am hesitant to make my blog into an advertisement for someone else. So, I wanted to ask you, my lovely readers, what you think about this?
  • Related to that is that I have also been approached by some companies to do reviews of their products. What do you guys think about product reviews and giveaways? (Rest assured that I will not become a sponsored blog with every second post talking about product x that company y gave me to review. )  I have been somewhat tentative about doing sponsored reviews, but I have agreed to review one company’s baking mixes because I have seen it in my local health food store and I thought it might actually be helpful for those of you who don’t have time to make things from scratch. So expect a giveaway soon!
  • I am debating whether or not I should continue volunteering at CUPS. Sometimes it can be quite fun as I like interacting with a whole bunch of the clients and it has been excellent for helping me to build boundaries, but it can also be quite stressful and I can’t really show my servant’s heart without being taken advantage of. I guess that is the reality of dealing with homeless, addicted and broken people in such a situation. I also feel torn because I know that the people who work there really appreciate my help and I was the volunteer they used in their annual report to help encourage others to volunteer at CUPS as well, so stopping would be somewhat … hypocritical. haha.
  • I am still unsure of what I want to do with my future in terms of employment. I realized that I’m still incredibly hesitant about jumping into an engineering job because I’m afraid it’s going to be a repeat of my internship. Honestly, I don’t want to wake up every morning dreading going to work and then pretending that I like it. Not fun. On the other hand, in my studio portrait photography course the instructor talked a bit about opening your own photography business. For the last year or so I have thrown around the idea of opening my own photography business at some point,  but I’m afraid and I don’t know whether this is the time to do it or not. If it is, then it opens the Pandora’s box of things you need to do to open your own business, which is scary enough on its own!  Like choosing a name. Funny that I usually get caught up on things like that. So, do any of you know anyone who has made the jump to professional photographer and would be able to give me some advice?
  • After going to this spiritual healing course at the beginning of May, my belief system has been challenged as all the lies of the devil I’ve believed in are being revealed by God’s truth. I am glad this is happening, but the two battling belief systems are creating a lot of confusion.

Thank you for reading this and I appreciate any and all thoughts and advice! 🙂

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Shoot and Edit SOOC: On Faith

Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see.

– Hebrews 11:1

While I was trying to figure out what to take a photo of for this weeks Faith inspired Shoot and Edit, I thought about what an applicable aspect of my life that requires a lot of faith. The second thing* that came to me was my adventures with gluten free bread making. Ever since I made this loaf of bread, I’ve been trying to perfect it and I must tell you that sometimes it takes a lot of faith that it will turn out! For those of you who are not gluten free, making gluten free bread (especially one that is vegan, isn’t as dense as a hockey puck and stays together) is quite tricky as there is no gluten holding it together. When I make bread, I have faith that the yeast will do what it’s supposed to do and that all the components come together correctly so that it rises and holds nicely.

What requires a lot of faith in your life?

*The first thought that came to my mind was how I need to have faith that all the stuff I’m going through at the moment will result in me becoming the person that God intended me to be. I couldn’t think of how to photograph this without making it super, super personal, so I moved to my second thought. 🙂

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Shoot and Edit: Up SOOC

Do you ever feel that you have to keep your chin up and outlook positive or else you easily fall down the slippery slope of self doubt, dislike and criticism? I know I definitely do. Fortunately, I feel that lately I do have a lot to look “up” for: my relationship with God, my husband, my family and friends, you guys, photography, working through things and issues in counselling, baking and cooking, and so much more! I think the thing I look forward to the person God is creating me to be through all the “down” situations in my life.

I lift up my eyes to the mountains—
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the LORD,
the Maker of heaven and earth.

-Psalm 121:1-2

I know I’m not there yet and that the journey is how I’m going be healed, restored and grow. I guess one could say that my heart is like this restoration area in Nose Hill Park – I’m God’s work in progress. It’s going to take a while, but it definitely will be worth it!

What keeps you looking up?

This photo is my SOOC camera shot for this week’s Shoot and Edit Challenge’s “UP” prompt.

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Some Wednesday Randomness

Ever have one of those days where you spend so much time staring at your computer screen with a few blank blog posts but with so many things swirling around in your head? Yeah, me too – today is definitely one of those days.

  1. I got paid to take photos for the first time on Sunday. I was incredibly nervous at the beginning and we had a bit of difficulty identifying each other (we were at the zoo), but I think it turned out well in the end. Their son was super cute and he was a good sport for almost an hour, which I think is pretty amazing for a 7 week old baby!
  2. When we were at the zoo, I got to see some different flowers than what was in bloom when I was there last. Perfect for this week’s “Edit This!” challenge. (Whoops! It turns out I’m too late to submit it – that’s what the combination of being busy and procrastinating will do for you – but you can still look at the picture of the neat looking tropical flower.)

  3. I’m taking a hiatus from CUPS next week. I feel that it has just created a lot of superficial stress that makes it very difficult for me to work on the issues that I actually need to work on. As much as I love helping people, it gets a bit tiring to continually deal with drunk/rude/abusive/dirty/etc. people, so I need a break. I have to admit that I am excited that I don’t have to wake up super early and ride the rat race train next week!
  4. Mr. Bean and I have decided to redo part of our second bathroom. We’re getting new flooring put in tomorrow, so all we need to do is pick paint colours and a toilet. I know it seems easy enough, but it always seems to take much longer than expected. We’re also getting the tile in our front landing replaced as the geniuses who installed it did not include a sub floor, so many of the tiles have cracked and/or the grout has fallen out.
  5. I’ve decided that I want to golf more this summer. I used to be fairly good at it in my teens, but I haven’t consistently done it since I started dating Mr. Bean. My biggest problem is convincing myself that I can consistently do it without psyching myself out and doubting my abilities all the time. Hrm. I guess that’s just another example of how bigger problems with self worth plays out in my life.
  6. This week’s One Word Wednesday prompt is Nostalgic. I know we’re nowhere close to Christmas, but out of the pictures I know I have, this was the first thing that popped into my head. It’s always a tradition for my family to make Cherry Almond Crisps around Christmas and we all do our best to eat as much raw dough as possible. But, I want you to look at the table mat underneath the cookies – these were the table mats we’d use during the winter and I’ve spent many hours eating breakfast as a child staring at the mats and wondering what it would be like to be one of the people in the picture and which of the houses I wanted to live in.
    One Word Wednesday at Aspire
  7. Mr. Bean and I watched Wall-E for the first time the other day. SO. CUTE. I know we’re a bit behind in the times, but that’s okay. I highly recommend it as despite there not being much dialogue, it’s very easy to be swept up in the emotional story that Wall-E and Eve play out. Plus, it’s a not so subtle and clever social commentary of Western society. I like those kinds of things.

What’s on your mind today?

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