Since I don’t have any kids or bubble blowing gear, I had to come up with my own kind of bubbles for this week’s Good to Wow: Shoot and Edit. My best substitution? Bubbles in my sink!
I hope to do something interesting with them as they are a bit boring at the moment. Bubbles from dish soap are quite pretty though!
Now for an update:
- I have decided to not continue volunteering at CUPS because I don’t think that it is helping me anymore. It was great to work on my boundaries and make some friendships with the workers and the clients, but being there and dealing with some of those people is just too stressful for me and life is too short. Now I’m looking for some other volunteering to do, so if anyone in the Calgary area has any suggestions, please share!
- I have managed to strain my right wrist… again. You’d think I’d learn, eh? The combination of gripping tightly when I write, doing exercises with too much wrist bend, biking without gloves and poor hand posture while on my laptop has caught up with me. Now I have to behave and make sure my wrist is straight and do exercises. At least I don’t have to write any finals like one of the other times I strained it!
- I signed up for the next studio portrait lighting course next fall, which I am super excited about! I’m thinking about signing up for the wedding photography one even thought it’s on Saturdays and I will have to miss one class to go to a wedding.
What’s new with you?
You know when your life just feels like one big question mark? That’s kind of how I feel at the moment. I feel like there is a lot of uncertainty in my life and I don’t like it. I know I’m supposed to trust that God is in control, but it’s difficult especially when I want to be the one holding the reins.
I would appreciate some advice from you regarding some of my questions:
- I have recently been approached by a website of someone who appears as a health expert on a TV show for a partnership: if I provide a link in support of her website then I will be compensated through books, advertising or something along those lines. Eventually later this summer I would participate in a blogger spotlight program where I would share some of my expertise on vegan/gluten free/allergy friendly cooking and the like. It’s sort of a “if you send me traffic, I’ll return the favour” type thing.
While I am quite excited to be noticed and have someone who wants my knowledge and I know that it could be a great opportunity for me and my blog, I am hesitant to make my blog into an advertisement for someone else. So, I wanted to ask you, my lovely readers, what you think about this?
- Related to that is that I have also been approached by some companies to do reviews of their products. What do you guys think about product reviews and giveaways? (Rest assured that I will not become a sponsored blog with every second post talking about product x that company y gave me to review. ) I have been somewhat tentative about doing sponsored reviews, but I have agreed to review one company’s baking mixes because I have seen it in my local health food store and I thought it might actually be helpful for those of you who don’t have time to make things from scratch. So expect a giveaway soon!
- I am debating whether or not I should continue volunteering at CUPS. Sometimes it can be quite fun as I like interacting with a whole bunch of the clients and it has been excellent for helping me to build boundaries, but it can also be quite stressful and I can’t really show my servant’s heart without being taken advantage of. I guess that is the reality of dealing with homeless, addicted and broken people in such a situation. I also feel torn because I know that the people who work there really appreciate my help and I was the volunteer they used in their annual report to help encourage others to volunteer at CUPS as well, so stopping would be somewhat … hypocritical. haha.
- I am still unsure of what I want to do with my future in terms of employment. I realized that I’m still incredibly hesitant about jumping into an engineering job because I’m afraid it’s going to be a repeat of my internship. Honestly, I don’t want to wake up every morning dreading going to work and then pretending that I like it. Not fun. On the other hand, in my studio portrait photography course the instructor talked a bit about opening your own photography business. For the last year or so I have thrown around the idea of opening my own photography business at some point, but I’m afraid and I don’t know whether this is the time to do it or not. If it is, then it opens the Pandora’s box of things you need to do to open your own business, which is scary enough on its own! Like choosing a name. Funny that I usually get caught up on things like that. So, do any of you know anyone who has made the jump to professional photographer and would be able to give me some advice?
- After going to this spiritual healing course at the beginning of May, my belief system has been challenged as all the lies of the devil I’ve believed in are being revealed by God’s truth. I am glad this is happening, but the two battling belief systems are creating a lot of confusion.
Thank you for reading this and I appreciate any and all thoughts and advice!
Filed under Life, Thoughts
Ever have one of those days where you spend so much time staring at your computer screen with a few blank blog posts but with so many things swirling around in your head? Yeah, me too – today is definitely one of those days.
- I got paid to take photos for the first time on Sunday. I was incredibly nervous at the beginning and we had a bit of difficulty identifying each other (we were at the zoo), but I think it turned out well in the end. Their son was super cute and he was a good sport for almost an hour, which I think is pretty amazing for a 7 week old baby!
- When we were at the zoo, I got to see some different flowers than what was in bloom when I was there last. Perfect for this week’s “Edit This!” challenge. (Whoops! It turns out I’m too late to submit it – that’s what the combination of being busy and procrastinating will do for you – but you can still look at the picture of the neat looking tropical flower.)
- I’m taking a hiatus from CUPS next week. I feel that it has just created a lot of superficial stress that makes it very difficult for me to work on the issues that I actually need to work on. As much as I love helping people, it gets a bit tiring to continually deal with drunk/rude/abusive/dirty/etc. people, so I need a break. I have to admit that I am excited that I don’t have to wake up super early and ride the
rat race train next week!
- Mr. Bean and I have decided to redo part of our second bathroom. We’re getting new flooring put in tomorrow, so all we need to do is pick paint colours and a toilet. I know it seems easy enough, but it always seems to take much longer than expected. We’re also getting the tile in our front landing replaced as the geniuses who installed it did not include a sub floor, so many of the tiles have cracked and/or the grout has fallen out.
- I’ve decided that I want to golf more this summer. I used to be fairly good at it in my teens, but I haven’t consistently done it since I started dating Mr. Bean. My biggest problem is convincing myself that I can consistently do it without psyching myself out and doubting my abilities all the time. Hrm. I guess that’s just another example of how bigger problems with self worth plays out in my life.
- This week’s One Word Wednesday prompt is Nostalgic. I know we’re nowhere close to Christmas, but out of the pictures I know I have, this was the first thing that popped into my head. It’s always a tradition for my family to make Cherry Almond Crisps around Christmas and we all do our best to eat as much raw dough as possible. But, I want you to look at the table mat underneath the cookies – these were the table mats we’d use during the winter and I’ve spent many hours eating breakfast as a child staring at the mats and wondering what it would be like to be one of the people in the picture and which of the houses I wanted to live in.
- Mr. Bean and I watched Wall-E for the first time the other day. SO. CUTE. I know we’re a bit behind in the times, but that’s okay. I highly recommend it as despite there not being much dialogue, it’s very easy to be swept up in the emotional story that Wall-E and Eve play out. Plus, it’s a not so subtle and clever social commentary of Western society. I like those kinds of things.
What’s on your mind today?
Have you ever had one of those conversations where you have no idea how to reply? I did with a client at CUPS yesterday:
Him: “Did you know that they serve cranberry juice at churches now?”
Me: “Oh, really?”
Him: “Yeah, I broke into a church to steal their wine and it was cranberry juice! It sucked!”
Me: “uh… You broke into a church?!?“
Perhaps not the most eloquent or appropriate retort.
What would you have said?
While I was at CUPS the other morning, a native american man came up to be and asked if I would like to hear a joke. I said sure.
Him: What do you think Jesus said to the natives before he died on the cross?
Me: What did he say?
Him: Don’t do anything until I return.
Me: That’s not what he said.
Him: It’s supposed to be a joke!
It could be a funny joke given that many patrons who hang out at CUPS are natives who don’t appear to have any other aspirations for life, but it irked me that what he had said was wrong, so I did my best to correct him.
Me: I know, but this is what Jesus said before he died: “Father, forgive them for they know not what they do” and “It is finished.”
As I was telling him about this, it made me really glad that the last words Jesus said were not full of judgement, anger or pettiness, but instead love, sadness and forgiveness. It made me realized: if Jesus could forgive the people who killed him or aided in his death, surely he will be able to forgive me as well! Or anyone else for that matter!